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All of the little faithless people
Like statues upon the temple grounds
Fingers cast in the direction of I
As the barbed words come to fly
In this direction, my head is spinning around
You don't want this man to endure Hell
But he's hopeless, but you have so much faith
He's significant, but the feeling is but a wraith
The direction of your tongue is to draw blood
Here comes the flood, here comes the flood

The next time the world requests an approval seal
Is the next time I offer one solo finger
I am a conquistador of thought
The foundation upon which I stand could never rot
The lack of praise remains, it will linger
For to you, to the institution, I offer no appeal
Without debt, with reason
But to society, this is simply treason
The evidence is the aggression
Whenever this mind is in session

The night is increasingly difficult
When you have a whole string of people around
But you are all alone
As all the empty souls groan
I move forth, standing this ground
Never once will I subscribe to the cult
Of unquestioned reason
There is never a season
For being passive in this world
Reason and action will soon meld

It was half way passed dusk, where might I find sunrise
One thousand moments departed
And I was lying supine upon a bench beneath the stars
As I wonder, looking at all of you, just who you are
My thought some was thwarted
By a gentle, soothing wind, and to my surprise
I found peace within my solitude
I've found a story to succeed this prelude
But this progression is restricted
Because there is no approval for this reason I've perfected

I may be arrogant, but the days ran me down
I may be at a loss, but I once had nothing left to gain
Everything comes from something other
There is no ducking for cover
This legacy is grinding heavy against the grain
I'm never coming down
All the little people who pledge
While pushing me off the ledge
There is never reason for words spoken
But still hearts are forever broken

Dependence I have shed, in a world of nothing to offer
I never a lover, I need a friend
I need a sun to spread shine upon my day
I need a chariot of the sun to liberate me from the fray
Most of all, I need a heart that will never bend
But there is no finding a four leaf clover
As I stagger through the cold, bitter night
I keep one eye open, for a lover to cherish things right
There has been a shortage of support
And I've grown tired of the constant retort

I conclude my rambling, proclaiming restoration
I secede from the common pool of thought
I'm done jumping through the hoops of acceptance
From these rings of fire I shall keep a distance
Standing above, I shall hit the moment on the spot
I want to feel, I want an overwhelming sensation
As the light trickles over the distant horizon
Soon, as closer I come, I observe a welcoming sun
I will reach my day, where all shall be wrong
I will one day reach my forbidden dawn
:iconeverthesame807:

Author's Comments

This one is deeply personal. From the moment I left High School, I knew the days would be rough. I have little support, but much opposition. My decision to opt not for post-High School education equally for financial and philosophical reasons left many with a bitter taste. I believe that the philosophical content of the education complex is largely jaded and selective. I therefore believe, even if it was more correct, that the price is much too high and it is only rising. I do not own the sufficient funds and opting for such a depth of debt would not be favorable to my future.

But since I've been growing, in my ambitions and dreams. I have a Resolution that I'm pushing strong in my State. I have a poetry manuscript that has been receiving very strong positive reception from those who receive it. I spend many long nights, while working many hours at a day job, further attempting to achieve these dreams despite this opposition.

I covered this in a strong level of depth with the "Open Letter To The Close Minded", which I wrote in my Senior year of High School. Because of its length, it had to be split up into three parts here on DeviantArt. But it is deeply honest and philosophical. I would encourage you to read it if you're at all curious as to my decisions.

But back to the story, this is basically about the individuals in life who forever claim to believe in you, but at heart, whether it is evident or not, they do not find any reason to trust in your ambition. To believe is to trust to an extent. If you don't have that, what do we have left? I am at a loss. But life moves on. Without the support or not.

My new day is opposed. My rise is as well. It is indeed a forbidden dawn.

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:iconhuronandtoto:
I can relate to this. But I can also see it from the people who lack faith's perspective: they are afraid to trust because they see it as, well, you've already proven you're a failure. But you can prove them wrong! I'm in much the same situation, just I've been through college and got my degree but refuse to use it, prefering to find another way, my own way. Unfortunately, it's hard for other to see the goals and determination I have when all they see is failure to launch. But I'll keep going. :)

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"Why won't you let anyone in?" "Because as nice as these moments are, they're evil when they're gone."--from "Ultra Violet"
:iconeverthesame807:
Failure is something that can have multiple definitions, which is where I think a lot of the debate spawns from. This is where I've had major conflicts with people. It seems to me that most, at least those I went to school with and the faculty at that establishment, viewed success as being institutionalized and become an Ivy League valedictorian. They never discussed how to use a college education or what to do once you've achieved the goal (and the debt). I viewed this as reckless. I'm not sure what kind of use I'd have for a degree. Everything I am to do in life can be accomplished without it.

And anyway. If I wanted that much debt, I would have voted for Barack Obama in the last election : P
:iconhuronandtoto:
I agree. Didn't the founders think that education should teach you how to survive in the world plus how to be a better person? The Progressives are like, "No, it's about enlightening the mind and improving character," which is all well and good but also totally impractical. The college I went to, they actually taught you not to live in reality and not to think for yourself. Everywhere else I'd been, it was about critical thinking, but there it was like: "Only think on the things we tell you to."

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"Why won't you let anyone in?" "Because as nice as these moments are, they're evil when they're gone."--from "Ultra Violet"
:iconkimberley-h:
i like it :)

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Forever in my heart, this pain will ache.


~As an finishing touch, God created the dutch~ XD
:iconeverthesame807:
Thank you, very much. I'm glad you enjoyed it :)
:iconkimberley-h:
you're very welcome ":D

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Forever in my heart, this pain will ache.


~As an finishing touch, God created the dutch~ XD

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